day2. (5daycommitment)

secrets held so solemn even we forget there meaning

lest we forget our lives

lest we forget our soul

lest we forget our passsions

lest we forget our treasures…hidden in heaven…where dust can not reside…where our fears could never hide…and our lusts become lost never to be found again…i swear ive seen my soul ascend. pastures of pleasure…

if i could only remember while i am forgetting the sins that were inscribed upon me…the burden removed from me…i would be a better woman…i could be a better servant but how soon i sully myself…choosing scabs and scars…blood and bruises….as my beauty marks…ive lost the part of me…that keeps me balanced…i hold me silent when i should be screaming…i hold me hostile when i should be loving…i hold me softly when i should be fighting…as if this were my last breath…as if this was my last test…my first truth…seems like it is now a distant friend…who seldom thinks of me…never dreams of me…and has lost any sweet desire to hold my presence…hold me present…in thought…or…person…

im passing…barely…and proving…less worthy…less holy…less wholesome…like the stories that fall from my mothers lips…how her beauty makes them so lovely…

so sacred…so solemn we hold our secret…even we forget their meaning…

day1. (5daycommitment)

certain days i tend to agree with all that is good and pure and rich and worthy

and i welcome light as it were a lil child or a royal king a crown to place upon my forehead lightly touched with riches unmeasurable unleashed and unexpected undenied and awaitin glory and grace. i have found my self in my self in His self so precious and precise practicing patience holding to my virtue trustin in my honor and yet i am still and sinner my soul singin of songs too ugly to be unvieled for by the grace of my lord i am still loved and worthy to be hidden from the frowns of my enemies and of my loved ones…i have loved one man more then my mind can contain…more then i knew… i could not claim none of myself from that day forward….from that day backward i wonder where she went…and who she took with her…if i could time travel and tune in to visit a woman i know i must have loved…but too soon forgotten…too soon…it rottens like fruit in a dark damp place…lost life in a dark damp place…where the dry seeds also sprout…where we lose all doubt because we are left with no other option…. irresistible certainty…circling like spirit anointed doves…divine and designed for you to relax and reflect on love…in love…in awe…in God…

frequent flyer: “fly away”

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lyrics:

took my time to bare my soul to you

took the time to show you all i’d do

took my time to tell you all my fears

took the time and now you are not here

you walk away so calmly from this space

as if you didnt hear me call your name

now all my nights i spend them all alone

oh how i wish that you could come back home

but all the wrong youve done i dont think you could make it right

and all the hurt you caused i dont think it will heal this time

voices in my head urgin me just to change my mind

so close so far cause now i lack the strength to even try

fly away with me my love

fly away with me now

was certain that we’d stand the test of time

was certain that you’d never leave my side

was certain that i meant too much to you

now i cant live with or without you

you walked so calmly from this space

as if you didnt hear me call your name

now all my nights i spend them all alone

oh how i wish that you could come back home

but all the wrong youve done i dont think you could make it right

and all the hurt you caused i dont think it will heal this time

voices in my head urgin me just to change my mind

so close so far cause now i lack the strength to even try

fly away with me my love

fly away with me now…

sonicsurfer.

im grateful to be working with with such an ill producer and artist…he is not only my brother but he is also a beautiful soul. we have been blessed to create some amazing work together…its all quite peaceful and wonderful…he produced the first track for the frequent flyer series Thumper_Alhamdulilah and you will see more from him on this series as well…

follow his blog at http://sonicsurfer.tumblr.com/

and you can find him on twitter at @sonicsurfer

more magic to come soon…as soon as tomorrow.  stay tuned for the new “frequent flyer”

bruce lee

for mom and dad

what if you were struck by lightning?

marcia jones

you must visit this link.  my dear sis is such an amazing artist. see her work here…

http://untitled1972.me/portfolio.html

sia. breathe me

by way of my husband. im falling in love with this more and more every time i watch it. enjoy.

“thumper_alhamdulilah” lyrics (frequentflyer)

all your plans and schemes never could stop my hopes and dreams

no boy boy no

all that foul energy dont you know whos protectin me

no boy boy no

all them foul games you play youll soon see whats the price youll pay

no girl girl no

and you befriending me helps keep close my worse enemy

no girl girl no

you cant stop my shine

you cant stop my shine

dont apologize aint got no time for alibis

no boy boy no

and dont talk sweet to me i see right through your imagery

no boy boy no

see this is destiny written up in the stars you see

no girl girl no

how could you possibly stop all the good thats meant for me

no girl girl no

you cant stop my shine

you cant stop my shine

alhamdulilah (all praise is for God)